Quarter Life Crisis - Part 1

Welcome to my quarter life crisis. This "crisis" is something I've been experiencing for the better part of a year now, but has really started hitting hard these last few months. For those of you who may be unfamiliar with the term "quarter life crisis", many definitions are strewn across the interwebs; but for me, the term defines this turbulent time where I'm feeling completely lost, going back and forth about what I want to do, who I am, and what I want from this life, and trying terribly not to be jealous of those who seem to have it all together.

While investigating this quarter life crisis, I found this wonderful post, 25 Signs You're Having a Quarter Life Crisis. As I was reading through the list, I just kept saying "yep, that's me" in my head. It turns out that 18 out of the 25 signs apply to how I have been feeling lately. Two of my favorites are numbers 16 and 19, as follows.

"16. You see so clearly the two roads in front of you. A life of comfort and a life of risk. And you're not sure you have the right car or directions to go down either one.

19. Making a budget is completely debilitating. Even thinking about doing your taxes. Debilitating. Buying groceries. Debilitating. Doing dishes. Cooking dinner. Looking for a job. Calling your mom back. Calling your best friend back. Picking up the phone at all. DEBILI-FRICKING-TATING. So you watch four seasons in a row of ____________, while Facebook stalking exes and enemies." [source]

These two almost perfectly describe my current life experience (minus the Facebook stalking in #19, I've outgrown that phase!). Oh, and numbers 22-25 are pretty awesome as well. I won't post them here but you can read them on the original post.

So, part of my journey for this spring break is trying to navigate my ongoing quarter life crisis. Let's see how this goes...

Simple Pleasures: Spring Snow

I know many people are complaining about today's weather, but you won't hear any negative comments from me. I think the combination of snow and spring creates an exquisitely beautiful scene. Fluffy white snow covering budding branches - simply magical! Here are some photos I snapped this morning.

It's the most wonderful time....

...of the year. While it's not quite my favorite holiday season, it is a wonderful time for teachers all over the country - spring break!

Now I always enjoyed spring break as a college student but it was mostly a time to hang out with friends without that pesky schoolwork getting in the way. This year, as a teacher, I am ecstatic about the arrival of spring break. Not only do I get a break from the everyday stress of teaching (planning, grading, etc.), but I also have some wonderful plans for this much needed time off.

So what are those plans? I've developed a short list to remind me to enjoy my time, while still being productive.

Spring Break 2013 Fun List

1. Reading FOR PLEASURE

I'm sure many teachers can relate to this, but during the school year it's hard to find time to read just for the sake of reading. Usually I'm busy reading about my content, new practices for the classroom, required texts from the district, etc. So I purchased three books from Amazon last week for my reading pleasure this week. And they have nothing to do with education at all!

2. Exercising my creative muscle

Write, paint, craft, REPEAT. I have not been allowing myself to be creative like I should be, i.e. I haven't been making time for it. This week, I am scheduling time to get the juices flowing and create things.

3. Organizing my life

I know, organizing on a break? But for me, with my slight OCD, organizing all of my stuff brings calmness and order to my life, something I desperately need.

4. Relaxing

I'm talking about the most basic forms of relaxation - vegging out on the couch, watching movies/daytime television, sleeping in, and hanging out with my husband and pups. Bliss!

Hopefully, this week will be just the break I need. I will come out rejuvenated with a new fervor for life.

Anyone else on spring break this week? What are your plans for your time off?

And I'm back

Okay, I am writing again. For the past month or so, I have completely neglected my blog and any other form of writing, along with any other creative endeavor. You see, I started a job on February 1^st – my first teaching gig – and I have been a bit disheveled since then.

During the week, my days are filled with early mornings, long commutes, stressful work environments, (what seems like) endless planning and grading, and bed times of someone 3 times my age. Add to that constantly questioning my life decisions – Is this the right career for me? Can I do this for the next 40+ years? Am I being fulfilled? Am I making a difference? (All questions for discussion in a later post). By the time the weekend rolls around, I’m exhausted and unable to get my brain juices flowing to produce anything.

Last weekend, I escaped that feeling for a little while. Kings and I visited Great Falls Park in northern Virginia. Experiencing nature always calms me and helps me remember just who I am and what I want in this life. Nature brings me back to me.  However, my serene feeling was short-lived as various stressors crept in and another work week began.

Potomac River at Great Falls Park, VA

But this weekend, this weekend was good splendid. Friday evening was spent vegging out – wine/beer, pizza, and comedies. The hubs and I are both trying to have healthier lifestyles so we gave ourselves Friday night as a last hoorah (at least for a while) for greasy, carb-loaded food. Saturday we went on a shopping trip to add some much needed updates to our wardrobes (and found some great deals, I might add). Then, there is today. This morning, after breakfast, I went for a run. Even though I struggled to finish the two miles, the sun was shining, the fresh air was revitalizing, and the endorphins were flowing. Besides bathing the dogs and a few other household chores, I have done nothing else but relax, sip some wine, and collect my thoughts. It was exactly the day I needed.

So, here’s to a rejuvenation of my creativity (and blog) and figuring out my place in this majestic world.